Monday, January 21, 2008

On MLK Day

Today is a holiday for some, and just another work day for others.  The problem with holidays is that we don't often mark the occasion, or the reason for the season.  Perhaps only Valentine's day, the Fourth of July, and Christmas are truly marked but then love is celebrated with overpriced balloons, chocolates and demand-side price increases in roses.  Rare is the occasion to think about freedom and independence in July.  Christmas has become more about shopping and gifts than the celebration of "Emmanuel," God with us. 

Rare is the occasion to visit a cemetery on Memorial day or to celebrate American labor at the end of summer.  They might just mark the fashion season, the beginning and end of white shoes.  They mark the opening and closing of amusement parks and neighborhood pools.

So today I offer this essay, shared with me by my brother.  It is from James Baldwin.  From 1983.  A letter to his nephew on the hundredth anniversary of the emancipation.  It is short, so read on.  To celebrate the holiday. 

Now, my dear namesake, these innocent and well-meaning people, your countrymen, have caused you to be born under conditions not very far removed from those described for us by Charles Dickens in the London of more than a hundred years ago. (I hear the chorus of the innocents screaming, "No! This is not true! How bitter you are!" but I am writing this letter to you, to try to tell you something about how to handle them, for most of them do not yet really know that you exist. I know the conditions under which you were born, for I was there. Your countrymen were not there, and haven't made it yet. Your grandmother was also there, and no one has ever accused her of being bitter. I suggest that the innocents check with her. She isn't hard to find. Your countrymen don't know that she exists, either, though she has been working for them all their lives.)

Well, you were born, here you came, something like fifteen years ago; and though your father and mother and grandmother, looking about the streets through which they were carrying you, staring at the walls into which they brought you, had every reason to be heavyhearted, yet they were not. For here you were, Big James, named for me you were a big baby, I was not here you were: to be loved. To be loved, baby, hard, at once, and forever, to strengthen you against the loveless world. Remember that: I know how black it looks today, for you. It looked bad that day, too, yes, we were trembling. We have not stopped trembling yet, but if we had not loved each other none of us would have survived. And now you must survive because we love you, and for the sake of your children and your children's children.

This innocent country set you down in a ghetto in which, in fact, it intended that you should perish. Let me spell out precisely what I mean by that, for the heart of the matter is here, and the root of my dispute with my country. You were born where you were born and faced the future that you faced because you were black and for no other reason. The limits of your ambition were, thus, expected to be set forever. You were born into a society which spelled out with brutal clarity, and in as many ways as possible, that you were a worthless human being. You were not expected to aspire to excellence: you were expected to make peace with mediocrity. Wherever you have turned, James, in your short time on this earth, you have been told where you could go and what you could do (and how you could do it) and where you could live and whom you could marry. I know your countrymen do not agree with me about this, and I hear them saying, "You exaggerate' " They do not know Harlem, and I do. So do you. Take no one's word for anything, including mine-but trust your experience. Know whence you came. If you know whence you came, there is really no limit to where you can go. The details and symbols of your life have been deliberately constructed to make you believe what white people say about you. Please try to remember that what they believe, as well as what they do and cause you to endure, does not testify to your inferiority but to their inhumanity and fear. Please try to be clear, dear James, through the storm which rages about your youthful head today, about the reality which lies behind the words acceptance and integration, There is no reason for you to try to become like white people and there is no basis whatever for their impertinent assumption that they must accept you. The really terrible thing, old buddy, is that you must accept them. And I mean that very seriously. You must accept them and accept them with love. For these innocent people have no other hope. They are, in effect, still trapped in a history which they do not understand; and until they understand it, they cannot be released from it. They have had to believe for many years, and for innumerable reasons, that black men are inferior to white men. Many of them, indeed, know better, but, as you will discover, people find it very difficult to act on what they know. To act is to be committed, and to be committed is to be in danger. In this case, the danger, in the minds of most white Americans, is the loss of their identity. Try to imagine how you would feel if you woke up one morning to find the sun shining and all the stars aflame. You would be frightened because it is out of the order of nature. Any upheaval in the universe is terrifying because it so profoundly attacks one's sense of one's own reality. Well, the black man has functioned in the white man's world as a fixed star, as an immovable pillar: and as he moves out of his place, heaven and earth are shaken to their foundations. You, don't be afraid. I said that it was intended that you should perish in the ghetto, perish by never being allowed to go behind the white man's definitions, by never being allowed to spell your proper name. You have, and many of us have, defeated this intention; and by a terrible law, a terrible paradox, those innocents who believed that your imprisonment made them safe are losing their grasp of reality. But these men are your brothers your lost, younger brothers. And if the word integration means anything, this is what it means: that we, with love, shall force our brothers to see themselves as they are, to cease fleeing from reality and begin to change it. For this is your home, my friend, do not be driven from it; great men have done great things here, and will again, and we can make America what America must become. It will be hard, James, but you come from sturdy, peasant stock, men who picked cotton and dammed rivers and built railroads, and, in the teeth of the most terrifying odds, achieved an unassailable and monumental dignity. You come from a long line of great poets, some of the greatest poets since Homer. One of them said, "The very time I thought I was lost, my dungeon shook and my chains fell off."

You know, and I know, that the country is celebrating one hundred years of freedom one hundred years too soon. We cannot be free until they are free. God bless you, James, and Godspeed.

Your uncle,

James

Saturday, January 12, 2008

The first week

First week of the job has come and gone.  Took awhile to actually start working but I like it so far.  At the moment I'm doing massive data entry, but nothing as simple as cut and paste.  By the end of it all (guaranteed six months, should know better in a few more months) I should have used virtually everything I learned in SLIS.  So yeah. 

In contrast to shared trays of lasagna and "the magic supply closet" I encountered at one Lee High School things are much better.  They took us out to lunch the first day.  A nice place called Benjy's.  I had a dish I couldn't pronounce.  Nice huh?  Then the faculty club the next day.  Very nice.  They handed us an Office Max closet and said "order what you need."  So I got pens and staplers that will actually work.  It is the little things.  Oh and health care is cheaper and better.  Retirement is better.  I can use the rec center if I want and attend arts events (most) free.  And oh yeah... I can get overtime. 

I don't think I'll have the same antics that I did when I was teaching though.  Patent management just doesn't lend itself to it.  But if anyone can explain to me what a Buckyball is and why I care (I know it is tiny and I SHOULD care) I'd appreciate it.  Buckytubes too, though I suspect they are related to "balls" And while we're at it, why do we call them "Bucky"?

As a side effect of this whole new stage of life I hit the "my life is out of sorts and out of routine" problems that always come with new things.  Flat tire Friday morning, making that premium I paid to AAA worth it.  I also bought a new clock radio.  I'd given my classroom one away last spring so I went shopping today.  Something about a biology lab just needs background noise.  Anyway for $25 I got an automatic time-set clock with an MP3/Aux audio jack.  My office mate is going to love me but at least she's better than the narcoleptic I shared a closet with once.

Prairie Home Companion is over.  I'm going to go figure out what I'm eating for dinner.  Peace out yo. 


Saturday, January 05, 2008

Gum

I usually have a couple different kinds of gum in my purse.  The favorites are Raspberry Mint and Sweet Mint, both Orbit sorts.  I like Orbitz because they kinda hook the gum into the package, not making it impossible to get out but it isn't likely that the gum will stray too far either.  I think their ads are a little annoying, so in light of the fact I've recently swayed half a dozen or so of my friends to Raspberry Mint I think they owe me a cut of that budget.  I'll write the V.P. for marketing tomorrow.

I try all their new kinds, hoping for a new exotic flavor.  Mint Mojito is different, not good or bad but it won't replace the raspberry.  Citrus Mint is fun, if you like dreamcicles.  Lemon Lime should be avoided.  I've got a new package though... Maui Melon Mint.  Haven't tried it yet, but... when I was in Hungary I bought Melon Orbit gum thinking the flavor might have failed in the U.S. before I ever saw it.  Guess not.  Budapest is apparently cutting edge in the gum market. 

Mary will be excited too. 

Oh... and Alissa... if you still read this... are you a little disappointed that "Wait Wait" has had the Linda Ronstadt episode on three times now?  Is that because of the writer's strike too?  Cause that sucks.  It's like watching Jeopardy over and over again.